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OmG. What is wrong with me? I had the suddern urge to update xanga, and guess what, it's down. Why, what is going on?
Anyway, I drank a cup of coffee for the first time in a very long time. Then I started getting panicky, dreading, fidgetty. And realized that I'm not young anymore. Life is flying and it's not waiting for me. Heck, I don't even know what I want to do for sure yet. Not sure if it's the coffee or if it's just being done with school?
So I sat down and analyzed data. And now, I'm done and it took me 12 hours... and my butt hurts from sitting so long. It's 5am. Now, why did I just do that? It's not even due tomorrow. It's not even for MY project - just some other undergrads senior thesis.
What am I doing with and to myself?
I'm scared of dying. Dying without accomplishing anything. Dying without being remembered and without making my mark on society.
Is it the caffiene talking? Is it because I'm listening to Five for fighting - 100 years? I really hope it's the mocha.
July 23 2005, 23:20:34 UTC 6 years ago
I still haven't found a good way to make myself not worry about it. Nor have I done anything "major" enough in my opinion. But, one thing I have realized, is that most people don't do anything "major" enough in my opinion, and that perhaps my standard is too high in this case. I'm hoping that I'll do something world altering; something that changes the lives of thousands, millions, or even billions, of people. But in the long run, that's statistically very unlikely. So instead, what if I focused on changing a few peoples' lives for the better? For instance, my friends, my family, my future spouse and children, and my coworkers.
If I make a positive impact in their lives, that should count for something. Not as much as the incredibly far reaching change(s) I'd like to make. But I think that might ok.
Of course, no matter how elequent I write it, or how well I explain it, there's part of me that still disagrees. That's why it still bugs me so much. But it's at least worth a shot.
July 25 2005, 05:31:04 UTC 6 years ago
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